140503 At Dawn

140503 At Dawn; 140503 Saebyeoge

Yo, breaking off from the world, after leaving home at the age of 19,

I didn’t want to consume my emotions from my perspective.

My trainee life was 100 out of 100 but sociophobia develops and my human relations is 0.

I always prepare two masks…

Hiding my true self behind the defensive image,

I thoroughly hide myself, as if I’m a criminal.

I couldn’t take a step outside the dorm that was like a prison.

Drifting away friends, family or anyone around me,

They can’t remain beside me so they brush past me.

The arrow still misses the target marked “human relations”.

Pretending not to be lonely, pretending not to be in pain,

Pointlessly pretending to be okay, pointlessly pretending to be strong,

Don’t climb over the wall I’ve built in front of me.

I’m the island in this vast ocean, don’t abandon me.